Week 12 of the 90 Day Trauma Relief Program
We begin our next week of the 90 Block Therapy Trauma Relief Program focusing on the upper body and connecting to a spiritual trauma that may have impacted you. Spiritual traumas occur when your core spiritual values and goals are threatened, when you are shamed for actions or beliefs, or if you feel disconnected from that which brings meaning and joy to your life, to name a few. You may have many that you want to release but see if you can connect to a trauma that you feel has kept you in a state of freeze.
For me, I am going to focus on a deeply held belief that has prevented me from feeling joy in relationships. Somewhere along the way, I adopted a mindset that I am a bother to others. This has been a lifelong struggle -- to feel like I can own my space without giving up something first. I feel that my presence alone is not good enough, and that if I am not providing value to others, then I am worthless.
This may come from being the youngest in a family of girls, always feeling like a fish out of water in most situations, being hypersensitive to criticism, or any number of other reasons that trigger this internal response. This has challenged me to be able to ask for help, or even at times believe that anyone would want me around, unless I am paying the bill, being an ear for others to share their challenges, providing healing to those in need . . . somewhere along the way, my sense of self became small and insignificant.
I can talk my way through this, as intellectually I know this mindset is false. However, the negative sensation surfaces on a regular basis. There have been times that I even imagined that this work came to me because I needed a reason for people to love me; that if I could help enough people, then I would be worthy of the love of others.
This is probably the deepest and darkest place I can be pulled into, as it affects every single situation and relationship I have. I feel like I am a bore to be around, that I have no right to speak up for myself, that if someone gives me a moment of their time, I owe them tenfold. . .. It is my nature to pull away, and as an introvert, easy to do, but I do feel that I am missing out on many of the joys we are here to experience.
To be free to simply exist in this world without giving it all away is my focus for this week. If you were sharing this with me, I would share with you how invaluable you are, simply by being you, so it’s time I turn this intention into myself.
What are you going to focus on this week to pull up to your conscious awareness so you can work through the old wounds and create a deep level of healing?
On day 4 of this week, the speaker we will be highlighting is Dr. Marlene Siegel, a veterinarian for 40 years, with the last 20 years practicing integrative medicine. She shared on the call how gratitude is the highest frequency emotion -- an amazing way to shift negative patterns. Dr. Siegal and I will be creating a program together to support our furry friends!
Also, day 4 is the time to put the block aside and treat yourself with loving kindness. You are guided to a meditation using your hands on your belly that will allow you to drift into a peaceful state, while still addressing adhesions in this area.
Remember, there are many layers that need to be released and repaired so be patient with yourself and stay connected to the community, so you feel safe and supported through the process.
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Breathe & Believe,
Deanna
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