We begin our next week of the 90 Day Block Therapy Trauma Relief Program focusing on the upper body and connecting to a physical trauma that may have impacted you. Perhaps you sustained a concussion, had an injury from a car accident or a fall, or a surgery somewhere in this area. You may have many that you want to release but see if you can connect to a trauma that you feel has kept you in a state of freeze.
For me, I am going to focus on an incident that happened when I was 9 years old and I broke my front tooth. I was at the lake with my family, and my sister and I were playing outside with a baton that my best friend had left. I had become pretty good at twirling the baton and was having a great time showing off.
My sister gave me a challenge -- to throw the baton as high in the air as I could, but with my left hand. Being right hand dominant, I hadn’t tried this before, but I accepted the challenge and threw it up in the air. As soon as I looked up, the sun caught my eye, and I lost sight of the baton: until it came crashing down on my face. I immediately fell to the ground.
The next moment, I became aware that it felt like I had sand in my mouth. I put my hand to the area and realized I had broken my front tooth. Even opening my mouth caused excruciating pain as the nerves were exposed. I ran to my Mom, and she looked mortified. Being Sunday, I couldn’t get to the dentist until the next day. I still remember how angry and sad I felt.
It was only a short time before that my baby teeth had fallen out and I had grown in my permanent teeth. I kept thinking -- “Why couldn’t this have happened when I could still grow a new tooth”. I wanted to scream from the rooftops, however it hurt to open my mouth. Each time the air hit the nerve it would bring tears to my eyes.
This tooth has caused me more continual annoyance in my life than many things I have encountered. Firstly, for years, it was unsightly. It was yellow, too big and affected my confidence when smiling. Once an adult, I had it redone, but again, it didn’t match the other teeth and it felt like I had a chicklet instead of a tooth. At another time when I had it redone, it was thick and caused me to start grinding, which wore down my bottom teeth. Even today, although it’s the best one I have had, it still feels like a weight in my mouth, and I am constantly aware of its presence.
On the one hand, I realize how fortunate I am to have been able to get dental care, however, there are still moments when I smile and see this foreign body front and center. For years I struggled with cold sores and dry and cracked lips, and I wonder if this was a major factor in what caused those frustrating issues.
I have worked through a lot of my frustrations around this, but feel I want to go even deeper and pull out all the unconscious habits and emotions that have pervaded since age 9 from this trauma. I want my lips to feel full and healthy, and I want to embrace the smile that I use to share so freely and confidently.
What are you going to focus on this week to bring to your conscious awareness so that you can work through the old wounds and create a deep level of healing?
On Day 4 of this week, the speaker we will be highlighting is Edna Guzman. She has an amazing process to help you reframe your past and to bring confidence into the moment. Quinn and I had the unique opportunity to stay with Edna in Puerto Rico and I feel blessed to have experienced one of her healing sessions - which I highly recommend.
Also, Day 4 is the time to put the Block aside and treat yourself with loving kindness. You are guided to a meditation using your hands on your belly that will allow you to drift into a peaceful state, while still addressing adhesions in this area.
Remember, there are many layers that need to be released and repaired so be patient with yourself and stay connected to the community so you feel safe and supported through the process.
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